It's Been A While...

So many things have happened, so few gigabytes available...

It's been almost two weeks since I've blogged. I've finally moved out of Codependence Estates, and am back living with family in Heaven. Last night, the girls and I snuggled up on my bed and watched "Dancing With the Stars". Belinda Carlisle was right...Heaven is a place on Earth.

I got my yearbook finished (yay!), and only 2 of the pages are Lame-O, making me 97% satisfied with the book. Not bad for only my second time around. Of course, now, I'm already thinking of how I will do it next year. Although, next year will be a whole new ballgame.

After the Austin trip, after spending three days with two of the 2nd grade teachers, I feel as though I am done with Special Ed and ready to move back into general ed. My assistant-my spiritual mentor- is moving away. My students are causing more and more strife for me. It's time to dust off my feet and move on. I will get to keep my Thing 1 and Thing 2 in my class as my own little blessing, and I will probably have Stephanie's little Volcano, so my days will be far from routine. Because Heaven knows that my life has never been described as routine...

Today, in PE, I got tagged pretty hard with a dodgeball (though it was thrown by a first grader, so it didn't hurt too bad, and yes, I do play with my kids during their specials time). My little Thing 1 found a dodgeball and got back at the kid that hit me from a ridiculously close range. It made him proud to be able to protect his teacher, and I was touched. Maybe that "Wild at Heart" stuff was right...men do have an innate need to rescue the maiden.

In other news (told you this is a lot), have I mentioned lately how much I love my God? For almost two years, He's been giving me a message that is a little perplexing to me, because it could be just me making it up, because it's pretty cool, and I wouldn't at all be disappointed if it came true. He also gave me a time frame for it, in which I firmly believe, and I think that's pretty cool. This is an ideal situation for my little ADHD heart to handle. God said "Here's the information you wanted, and here's the time that it will happen." Awesome! Though the time He set before me is more than a year away (though little more than a year), the message has been on my mind a lot lately. You see, while I believe that God can tackle anything (hello, He put the stars in the sky and He knows them by name), this thing...this message was wigging me out. Not because I don't believe it will come to be, but I guess because I felt like it would take some huge change on my part. Not even really compromise, just change.

Why do we do that? Why do we assume that our God, who created us personally, would put this desire in our hearts and then require us to change in order to get it? I guess because I know in my heart that God knows what's best for me even better than I do, that I think He will require a complete change in me to get me to the place where He wants me to be to give me what my heart desires. Why is that? But, as I said, I love my God, and He showed me yesterday that I was just wrong. My week, human theology wasn't anywhere near the truth.

You see, yesterday, through a series of odd findings, I discovered more about my "message" that both confirmed again that it was from God, and also reminded me that my God knows me and Loves me. My God has taken care of my every desire, including things that are so obscure that I would never thought of them myself. You ARE amazing God...