Camp

I head out for camp tomorrow afternoon, so I'll be out of commission for a week. I am part of the early crew that goes ahead of the kids and other adults and gets everything ready. This year, we have a new children's minister, and he's awesome, and I am already anticipating a great week.

I'm feeling a little off today for some reason. Can't put my finger on it right now, but I just don't feel right. Physically, I'm fine. Emotionally, spiritually, whatever...just a little off. Not sure what that's about. The last trip I took, mission trip, was emotionally tough for me, and I think I may be a little gun-shy about going on another week-long trip where I'm away from my family, my routine, and my little corner of the world that's mine all mine. Also, last year's trip was very very hard for me, and I came back very hurt. So maybe I'm just a little afraid of what might happen for me this week.

One of the things I've been thinking about a lot lately is that although I've completed a lot of fun creative projects lately- scrapbooks and scavenger hunts- I'm not writing at all. I'm not a writer per se. I'm not going to write a novel- those are not my aspirations. I just write to make sense of things, and as a sort of healing outlet, and I haven't written much lately. My journal has been empty. I've written a snippet here and a snippet there and not much in between, and I think that's part of my funk.

Whatever the reason, I'm going away for a week with no internet access, no blog, and limited cell phone usage. It will do me good I think. And don't worry. I'm sure when I get back I will have a list for you.